Infectious little devil

“I need to confess something.”

“You sound serious. Is everything okay?”

“Not really. Why don’t you sit down.”

My hands started to tremble. I sat down just next to him, unable to look away. He seemed exhausted, lost in thoughts so deep the ocean would be jealous.

“I think I caught something. The doctors think I’m in terminal state. No recovery, they said…”

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Conversatii de cafea

La multa lume poate li se pare ciudat cand mergi la o cafea singur. Ma uimeste asta! Adica Propria ta compani ar ttrebui sa iti fie mai mult de ajuns. Eu nu m-am plictisit odata cand am iesit cu mine la o cafea, doar sunt o persoana misto! Plus daca ai deja un loc al tau, la care deja te simti ca acasa, ce ai vrea mai mult? Iti spun eu: oameni la care sa le asculti conversatiile. Si nu is stilul de stocker sau dupa gossip. ii ascinat sa auzi ce povestesc oamenii cand sunt afara cu prieteni si se simt in largul lor si vorbesc despre orice. Acuma stau la o cafea si incerc sa nu rad la glumele sau conversatiile pe care le au ei.
Conversattia care are loc chiar acum:
-Eram odata la ora de engleza si vorbeam despre biblie si despre epidemii si boli. Si la un moment daat intreaba profa de engleza cum se spune la bube. Nimeni nimic, si la un moment dat se trezeste unu si spune plin de confidenta: boobs. Dupaia cand o realizat ce o spus s-o facut tot rosu.
-Iti dai seama, sa vina unu la tine si sa faca “vai ce plin de boobs esti”.
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-Vi sa intamplat vreodata sa va uita-ti in masina sa va aranjati parul si sa fie geamuri fumurii si numai observi deodata ca este cineva in masina si se uita la tine ca la felul 4?
-Pai cred ca laa fete li se intampla asta zilnic.
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-Facem cheta sa mergem in rai?
-La o bauta chiar.
-Asa am auzit ca punem bani fiecare si mergem in rai.
-Asa ii mituiesti tu pe aia din rai?
-Da, cu bani!
-Si multa bere!

I know smoking …

I know smoking isn’t very healthy or whatever and people get so mad when you say it’s attractive but there’s just something about the connotation behind smoking that makes it nice, the way a person seems so at ease when they smoke makes it so attractive. The positive connotation that the persons a free spirit or a rebel or anything really, but i feel like the main idea is a sense of individuality. I love watching people smoke and do tricks like they’re in their own little world because they kinda are. That’s sorta stupid, but whatever.

I want to be the girl that knows how to be herself in new places. I want to be the person that can always be there for the one she loves. I want to be the girl that never gives up. I want to be the girl that always sees the good in people. i want to be the girl that never lets people down. I want to ge the girl that isn’t afraid to go after her dreams. i want to be the girl that can be alone without feeling lonely. I want to be the girl that always says the truth. I want to be the girl that admits she makes mistakes, but always says i’m sorry. I want to be the girl that never feels insecure. I want to be the girl that isn’t scared of this big world that we live in. I want to be the girl that always tries to be better, I want to be the girl that grows up, but is always a child at heart. I want to be the girl that never stops dreaming. I want to be the girl that is always naive, if that means that she still believe in the good of this world. I want to be the girl that you fell in love with.

I want to be many people. I don’t think they want to be me.

So all I can do, is be myself,